Following Peace

I am trying to write about a life of peace, but there are a million noises in the house right now that make me want to scream. People touching me, talking to me endlessly, whining, crying, yelling, laughing....
I can hardly get enough peace to think, let alone write.
Especially about life.
Never the less, life is made up of these moments. Frustrating ones and unexpected ones. I have a propensity to seek the peaceful more than any other type of moment. That is what seems to be the most sanity saving for me. Peace. I like quiet, restful, predictable moments. It is something that sets me apart from a lot of my friends who are a lot more at peace with messy things, loud things, things that let their kids have way more freedom of time and creativity.  I think I am considered a structured mom. I like schedules, I like everything in it's place. I don't like stuff, I like the world around me to make sense and to be quiet!
That's not too much to ask, right?!
I have felt pressure over the 5 short years of my parenting to have and to do things a certain way. I mean, we all feel it. If you are not doing crafty things, you should be. If you are not cleaning everyday, you should be. If you are not breastfeeding, co-sleeping, vaccine giving, baby wearing, exercising, homeschooling, experience getting, YOU SHOULD BE! You could "should be" yourself into the ground.
I know I have reached those places of feeling "in the ground" and I am a mean mommy in those places. I am not a loving wife and I can say one thing for certain, I DON'T have peace. I am tired, frustrated, and feel "less than" most of the time.
My heart wrestles with all the things I should be improving on or could do better and how I am falling so far short of those places.
I have come to this conclusion though (finally), that I must follow the peace. And although it is much easier to say than do, it works. It makes me a person so different than I thought I should be, but I have so much more peace. I don't have to craft all the time. I don't have to have a clean house all the time. When I shut off the outside noises of people telling me "you should be", peace follows. I don't have to do the things everyone else thinks I should be doing, or even feel the pressure of them! I can just let it roll off my back. It's so much more fun to be the person I was intended to be rather than the person I always though everyone else thought I should be.
I can definitely appreciate other perspectives and reasons for doing what they do, but I don't have to do it. And I don't have to feel like I SHOULD be doing it.
You know, there is more to it than just my own perceptions of what brings me peace though. It is not just about following MY peace, but seeking God's. What does God say I should do? What is His perspective? And that is when the real peace sets in. When I am walking in the middle of His purpose. The way He made me. Being the cog that fits into the space I was made for. That not only brings peace, but such Joy.
Thank you Lord.
Now, to just walk in it. That will be my ambition.